my feeling
- カテゴリ：日記
- 2009/02/22 05:26:56
My friend went back to Japan today.
2 more my friends went back to Japan already.
I don't know how I feel actually...
All of my Japanese friends are here for a year or so.
Everyone has "time limit" but I don't.
Sometimes I think about the meaning of being here.
Why am I here?
I heard everything happens with some reasons.
Hopefully there is a reason which my life brought me here.
My life has changed alot since I came here.
I liked myself more when I was in Japan.
Since I came here, I stopped going out like I used to do in Japan.
I know my friends in Japan can't believe it but I usually spend time at home.
I don't know why I don't really go out but I just don't feel like it when I'm here.
Not much things excite me here.
It's not because I changed. I still love going out like my old life.
If you know about me enough, you know what I like and what does excite me.
If you were hanging out with me when I went back to Japan, you know I haven't changed.
Nobody knows who I really am here...
I mean I have good friends here but they don't really know about "real me".
in fact, we can't know the real status of the person, like "real me".
It is difficult to define the "Real Status" of persons.
Because the persons themselves and the environment change rapidly and widely.
And especially, we are living on the Time-Axis, which cannot control by ourselves.
Anyway, there are too much parameters and they are too difficult to check correctly at one time.
But sometimes I come to think "where is Real Me?".
Recently I have been tired of looking for it.
So, I stopped looking for the conclusion.
It is impossible to check things without interfering to the target, the scientists say.
In this case, the observer is me, and the target is me.
Well..the fact I know is that
-I want you to be happy.
-We are enjoying the Nicotto Life.
well...sorry...my sentences are quite strange and confusing..
「本当のあなた（ＳＩＤさん）」がわからない人は、
その人自身が「本当の自分」をまだ知らない人だったりしますよね。
「自分自身を見つめる」…「内省」の時間が足りない人が、世の中には沢山います。
逆に、ＳＩＤさんは、そう言う時間をちゃんと持っている人なんだと思いました。
お疲れ様＾＾； 新鮮な空気をいっぱいすって、もやもやをば～っと吐き出してね～☆