命
- カテゴリ：日記
- 2014/02/26 00:46:56
よく母の外回りについて行き死んじゃうんじゃないかと思っている子たちが奇跡的な回復を見せてたりするのを見て‘命って強いなぁ’と感じてました。
そこで、数日前、前ついて行った外回りで偶然会った、親のネグレクトにあっていた次男の男の子が死んだと母に聞きました。
前見たときは能天気な笑顔で私の母の後ろを付いて回っていて（以前に何度か母がパンを買ってあげたりしてるので後ろについてる何かもらえるチャンスがあると見込んで）とても死んでしまうようには見えなくて報告を聞いたときは本当にびっくりしました。
その子は病気で死んだわけでも餓死になったわけでもなく、村の近くに住んでいた小数民族と喧嘩をしてしまって死んだと聞きます。（情報はいつも正しいわけではないのでどうしてケンカになったかはあやふやです）
母がまた外回りでその子の兄妹達の様子を見に行ったときにはもうお葬式だったようです。
親のネグレクトで骨と皮膚しかない時期を生き延びたのに一度の喧嘩で死んでしまうなんて、命って自分が思っているよりも儚いもののかもしれないと思いました。
その日のブログ：
http://www.nicotto.jp/blog/detail?user_id=1237666&aid=54371296
また、二週間ほど前にマザー・テレサの施設に行ってきました。
施設にいた子供たちのほとんどは障碍者で、皆施設の前で捨てられていたとか親のほうが‘一時的に預かって’と言ってドタキャンし捨てられた子供たちでした。
それでも施設の中にいる子供たちは皆本当に幸せそうで、シスターたちがどれほどいいケアーをしてあげてるのかがよく伝わってきました。
施設で私はダウン症の女の子と遊ぶことができて、彼女のフレンドリーさに拍子抜けしました。（笑）
ダウン症の子に私は最初抵抗がありましたが、その子とあそんでるうちに障害があっても他の子とあまり変わらないのが分かって差別的な考え方をしていた自分にとても腹が立ちました。
その日は母に急用ができて早くに施設を出て行ったため、その子の名前を聞くことができませんでした。
その子が先週、いきなり夜中に高熱を出して死んでしまったと母が連絡を取り合っているシスターから報告を受けました。
一晩で散るほど、命って儚いものなんですね。
自分が思っていたほど命が強いものではなかったのかもしれないと感じました。
ちなみにダウン症の女の子の死を聞いたとき、母が‘ダウン症の子供は天使だから、天国にちゃんと行きついてるよ’と言っていて、なぜダウン症の子供が‘天使’なのかを聞きました。
ダウン症の子供たちはだれよりも心が綺麗で優しい性格をしているから天使なんだと聞きました。
そう考えれば施設で一緒に遊んだ女の子も障害がある分優しかったなと納得しました。
そのあとネットでダウン症の子供たちがなぜ天使なのかを検索してみるとほとんどが親がダウン症の子供の子育てのストレスをその子は天使だと思い込むことでごまかしているから書いてありました。
そうなのかもしれないと思う反面、母が言ったように自分の力の加減ができなかったりしていてるだけで、ダウン症の子はほかの人たちより心は綺麗なのは確かだろうと感じました。＾＾
母には二人の死が連続に来たことで、明日生きてるという保証はだれにもないのだから毎日後悔がないように生きなさいと言われました。
＊母の母（私のおばあちゃん）は母が学生だったときに交通事故で突然死んだので悔いがないように毎日を生きなさいとよく言われます。
Wow! You have such wonderful surroundings and meet respectable people! I wish I would be there to experience things together with you. :D
I'm also VERY spiritual; many spiritual people gather around me. lol
I enjoy talking about spiritual matters more than ordinary stuff. I'm happy to find you're also interested in them! :D
I think Lala is also kind of spiritual. arie is learning about spiritual matters right now.
Like you, I believe in nature spirits and gods; cristals have so much power and so do plants...... I'm doing trans-work like charging my energy from the ground as well as the universe. I send my energy to people who need it.
Oh, I can't stop writing again! lol
Hope to see you next Sunday at SESS. :D
I've heard of Dalai Lama's story from my mother, and I've met a person that had some connections with Dalai Lama himself. ( my mother's work seems like a magnet to many spiritual people!) He's such an honorable person! I was amazed when I heard the story of him predicting his rebirth so accurately.
I've also met a few people who claimed to have some memories from their past lives or researched about the theory of rebirth. Spiritual people have the most interesting stories! I always hang around to listen to their conversation with my mother every time I get the chance.
I also believe in nature spirits and gods as strongly as I believe in rebirth! Recently, I've learned that there are seven gods living in one grain of rice! Since then, I've become more careful to not leave even a peck of rice in my bowl. I can't believe how rude I was the past few years for leaving few grains of rice in my bowl! I wonder how many gods have I thrown away!
I agree with her totally; I think it's really important to live our lives to the full and improve our spiritualities.
Don't you know that Dalai Lama decided not to reborn? It's amazing "Dalai Lama" always has the same spirit, that means he reborned again and again to be Dalai Lama.
One of my close friends has a daughter, who was an angle before coming into this world. So actually, she doesn't need to reborn as a human-being this time.
Oh, I can't stop writing! I'm really interested in this stuff and I'm VERY happy to talk with you. :D
Though I get many influences from Filipinos, rebirth isn't one of them. I believe in rebirth strongly since my mother always taught me about rebirth. She often says that I should live my life to the fullest so that I wouldn't need to be born again. It would be tiring to live again! She tells me that if i manage to achieve what I needed to achieve in this life, my soul can rest. On the other hand, if I don't, I would have to go through another life which will no doubt be harder than the one I'm living in now.
Do you think that's because you have such splendid parents around you, or many Filipinos think this way?
I'm really curious about that, because I don't think many Japanese think about this matter seriously and don't have their own thoughts about it.
Seeing my mother depressed or down from deaths f her patients is quite common for me. I often hear the stories of those patients who passed away from her. I guess the death of the down-syndrome girl and the neglected boy hit me harder than usual since their death was consecutive. Both my mother and I didn`t see it coming as well. The mention of their unexpected death made me realize the fragility of life very solidly.
Carrie>
The blog I mentioned has the title `自分の日常生活を見直すべきだな～と’.
It has a comment from you already, actually. :D
I also believe in the idea of rebirth and so does my mother. We both believe that people go through rebirth to improve themselves so my mother often tells me to live my life at fullest. I don`t believe that everybody goes through rebirth as humans all the time, though. :D
Somehow, I couldn't open the blog site you mentioned here. :( Never mind. :D
I've come to believe in transmigration after reading some books about near-death experience, young children's memory of past lives, and "生まれ変わりの村" by Ken Morita. This book tells us about the people who live in some part of China all know about their past lives.
I believe all the soul continues our eternal journey to improve our spiritualities.
Those special kids must have gone through lots of experience and have really high spirits!
You really live a life seeing many aspects of others' lives. Keep informing us and make us think about various matters. :D
Nobody knows what happened in a moment and when we die.
Her grandfather passed away last summer.
It was the first time for her to see a person disappearing in front of her.
She and I were with him till his last breath.
I believe that his death taught her a lot.
My father showed what the life was through both live and death.
I think death aroud us enlighten us.
I know that you have already got much.